Hope

It is hard to weak up some mornings. My head is full with wrong ideas about my future, I loss all hopes and start to crying. Weak up without any clarity of your future, just uncertainly, it is hard.

I think these kind of thoughts make me behave so stupid. I am afraid that I am no living enough this experience, that I am missing details, and my head start to rush me, I have to move, I cannot be in any place because I feel that I should be in other, that my time is running up. I had some conversation without sense, and rushed people around me. 

    

In this race, I felt apart. I start to cry and I could not stop for a whole day, next day I was in the same mood, by the third day I had to change my attitude. This day, was today.

What happen today? I do not know if it was the candle that I turn on in George Church on thankful to God for everything, that make me feel good, in calm, but I have hopes again.

I cannot quite trying to stay here for a year, before my time run up. I cannot forget that I have made a lot with a few, and that I can continue doing it. I cannot forget who I am, and put all my passion in other bet for my future.

I did not win the first scholarship that I was applying, I did not win the second scholarship, the third I will win it. 

Homesick

When I arrived to Cardiff I thought that I will feel homesick from be far away of my parents, my relatives and friends, but this did not happen.  It is incredible what technology can do for your communication. I speak with my parent and brother a lot, and also with other relatives, and don´t feel alone. Moreover, I will find that some experience with my big Chinese family are quiet similar to Colombian experience. For example, today I cook Taipei with them, such a good experience.

However, there some details that make miss Colombia so much. This week I buy a capuchino and it taste awful, this happens with 99% of the coffees that I taste. I miss some food such as plátano and get hugs of the people that I love. 

Oxford and Balloon Festival in Bristol

I am in a pre-sessional 8 weeks course of English and all weeks the University do trips or plans to the nearest or interest cities . This weekend we went to Oxford and later my Chinese friends want to go to a Balloon Festival in Bristol.

The experience was amazing. Oxford has a lot of locations of Harry Potter movie that is why I was so exiting I love the movie and the books, and is no difficult to think that in such amazing place could occur a story of magic.

I was with my Chinese friends, so we went to eat a restaurant call Shanghai 30, it was weird it Chinese food in one of the most English cities, but I love it.

After that we took the train to Bristol, my first time in a train, a good experience. We arrive to Bristol and I break apart of my friends and meet new Chinese people by mistake. The balloons show was amazing, I love it, time later I found my friends. We waited for the last show who was in the darkness, and the balloon shine with rhythm, so spectacular and such a good music. We had to run to the train station to not lose our train. Half of the people lose it. I arrived by midnight to Cardiff and my Chinese friend call to eat again before sleep.

All my day was a great experience. It worth the 50 pound that I spent during the day.   

My birthday in Cardiff

Getting birthday far away from home could be difficult. The fact that you are not going to have a hug from the people who most love you and you love the most, could be depress.

My birthday (August 8) began with a lot of thoughts, first look at the phone, who wrote first. Second, wake up, take a shower dressed well to felt me well. Third, take my breakfast and see the phone again. I got an email. Yes one message could change my humor and make feel amazing. I received an unconditional offer to do my MA in Cardiff, so I apply to the scholarship with the key dates, now I just have to wait an answer.

I arrived to my class late, but when I did it the classroom receive me singing, so it was a good surprise. All my day was especial, my best friend from Colombia, who lives in London, arrive to Cardiff to spend the day with me, we went to the bay and I showed her my favorite place in Cardiff, Batu Park.

After that we went to dance Twmpath with all my colleagues, it was so funny, a great moment. My night finished in a bar.

Was a grate birthday, so difference of my birthday in Colombia. 

Betting for my future

I came to Cardiff with the idea of apply to the Postgraduate Taught International Scholarship, I made all the process to apply, but the last “key date” is between finish my pre-sessional course of English and get an unconditional offer, so I will do what I need to do: take the IELTS exam again, get a 7 and have an unconditional offer before August 16.

Yes, I know, again I am going to do the IELTS, an eternal nightmare for all students.  All these months everything have been just incredible, and now I am going to make a bet for my future.